Have I over stayed my welcome in spring

In life you get different parts, the funny parts, the serious parts , the parts you are proud of, even the parts you have to overcome. Some how though, the most difficult one for me is the growing up part. You see, most of the time I try to act like a young adult that is caring, helpful and have some maturity about them. However I still am that little girl that is careless, spoiled rotten and spends all of my parents money without thinking about the consequence. For me leaving my childish ways behind and entering adulthood may be harder then I thought. Much like spring, trying to become summer but because of certain conditions, just like with mother nature I am not ready to or rather I don’t want to.

As a child, you have not a care in the world you play make believe games, goof around with friends and the only education skills you really know is 2+2 or rhyming words like rat, cat and hat. For me however my education since I am in 10th grade I have to look at the viewpoint of possibility of going to college and the pressure of choosing what I want to do after high school. That will be a summer decision that I have to face sooner or later. Much like with Lizabeth where she had to get ready for high school and leaving middle school be hind, along with the simple worries.

Remember how Lizabeth always relied on her parents but most of her father, well I do the same the thing, only with my child like ways, it’s even worst. Most of the time I don’t think before I act or speak and don’t take things serious. A few months ago I got a $200 ipod for my birthday I didn’t even have for a month, before water damage got to it. Did I care? Yes and no because I was upset at first but then I turned right around and asked for another one. Plus considering the fact that I get side tracked easily, I am never focused on one thing and don’t know what I want, much like a kid in a candy store.

The most conflicting reason why I can’t move on to summer is that I have responsibilities but at the same time I am not responsible. Let me honest, I lose things, I break things, I definitely don’t know how to budget money, I really am hard headed and sometimes I don’t think I have a conscience. Yet, somehow I cook my own food, I do my own laundry, I still get money and I do know right from wrong.


Can I say my parents are the ones that are one holding me back for growing my own flowers? No, to me they are the sun, the water, and dirt to grow my marigolds. They have given me all the tools I need, now all I just need to do is use them and let my flowers grow from their own roots. You know since I pointed out these flaws that have stopped me for blossoming into a young adult am I really such a child now? Have I already enter the summer of my life and I just don’t want to face it? Can I move to summer with still having that memories of have that childish way about me? Honesty I still don’t, to me I think I will always be stuck in the middle, trying to choose a winner but up having a tie.

Let there be sorrow

What is the true meaning of sorrow? Is it something you should cry over or something that meaning less. Can it be something wasteful or just a feeling? After reading let there be sorrow, I discover many definitions of sorrow. Having realistic situations that gave connection of the prefix, un. Giving also it’s meaning that gave its presents of sorrow and what it is worth.

One thing I like about this poem was the making sense of the telling of ideas feelings of regret. Mari Evans stated within the poem that sorrow should be for something undone , my not look like much but it plays a powerful part because it gives the poem the first definition of sorrow.

Using and showing deep thoughts with sorrow a self - text perspective. For example when the poet says add one love withheld restrained, which makes me think of the quote“ Its better to have love then lost. Both Quotes to me had the meaning of love and or nothaving it.


The best part of this poem was the message it made me more interested here’s why. Within the words the poem gave meaning for me it was interpret as sorrow value and not to be fool with . It should be the lack of something that someone could do or stay without choice.

As you can see the poem really spoke to me not only with Vocabulary, text to self and message, but it’s over view point. Even the poem was a short poem it gave a lot meaning. So when you walk away from this essay I will hope you don’t waste sorrow and
give it to something undone, unrealize and undream. Now it’s your turn what is your meaning of sorrow?

just me "I make "

There’s not a lot I can offer
There’s not a lot I can say
But there are things I make what I am today.

I make not a lot
I make not less
I make my friends smiles to make feel them the best.

I make my parents proud and confused at most
I make my grandmom concern when there nothing to worry
I make people stop to talk and listen
I make a laugh at the end of my sentence

I make things clam
I make things causal

I don’t make things perfect because nothing’s
I make things real because nothing should be fake
I do however make mistakes

I make people upset and mad at times
I make my brother frustated unfortunely
But I can still say that I make a person that is Just me

NHD Reflection

NHD was really easy going for me this year. I did my project on Billie Holiday a famous blues in jazz singer. She was interesting person to me, she changed history using with her voice which was a very creative . Billie went through many trial and error which made her songs even more significant towards others . She surived racism and sexism and was really great person in life.

Even through i didn't move on to cities I think I did a really great job. I learn many things and work hard the most difficult thing to many was finding information about her marriages because her husbands played a unquie part in her
life . I decide to do a paper so I didn't have to work with anyone I didn't face in problems with parterns which was a good in some ways.

Well since next year i don't have to do NHD and it will be a choice.I decide to if I am allow to work with some one for 12th grade and I will do something different . Over all i did my best and really learned a lot. The most important thing I learn from doing this project and who the person I did it on was don't judge someone on there mistakes because they well overcome them.

introdution

On April 7, 1915 a famous blues/ jazz singing was born Billie Holiday. Even though she was not given the name Billie Holiday instead given the name Eleanora Fagan Gough. Her parents was very young when she was born her mother only thirteen and father only fifteen they not married so she was given the mother’s last name. Her father was a trumpet player who called her bill because she was a tomboy so as time went on eventually she called herself Billie then taking her father last name given her the name Billie Holiday.

Revised Thesis statement

Billie Holiday was famous blues and jazz singer. Though her music she inspired many people and made many accomplishment. Though years and years she went though trial and error with some good out comes and not so good outcomes and her songs that she sang actually became her reality.

anntotations part 2 NHD

1) Lady Sings the BluesBillie Holiday, with William Duffy. New York: Penguin, 1995

This book explains Her recording career is divided into 3 periods. The first is the aforementioned period in the 1930s, recorded with Columbia, marked by her time with Wilson, Goodman, and Young. Her music was made for jukeboxes, but she turned them into jazz classics. Her popularity never matched her artistic success, but she was widely played on Armed Forces Radio during World War II. From this period came the anti-racism song Strange Fruit, in which she paints a terrifying picture of lynched black bodies hanging from trees. The lyrics of the song were adapted from a poem by Louis Allen.

2) Billie’s Blues: The Billie Holiday Story, 1933-1959Chilton John. Cambridge, MA: Da Capo, 1989.
T
his book tells how Billie Holiday worked with many jazz greats including Count Basie and Benny Goodman. She sang in small clubs, large concert halls, and the film New Orleans. She even arranged and composed her own songs such as "I Love My Man" and "God Bless the Child." Many people mourned the loss of "Lady Day" when she died in New York at the age of 44.

3) Wishing On the Moon: The Life and Times of Billie HolidayClarke Donald. New York: Penguin, 1995.This book explains how Billie made big transition in he life when she moved to New York City with her mother as a teenager, and began singing professionally around clubs in Harlem, turning heads and making her professional recording debut at age 18. Holiday's voice was unlike that of any other singer at the time, and remains unmatched in style. She never simply sang a melody, but made every song her own by changing phrasing, sharpening or dragging out diction, or adding a little drama to a not-too-dramatic tune. Her music is still enormously popular today.

4) The Billie Holiday Companion: Seven Decades of CommentaryGourse Leslie(ed.). New York: Macmillan, 1997.

This movie explains what she die before she became a singer she worked as a maid and then as a teenage prostitute. According to legend, in 1930 (at the age of 15), to keep her mother from being evicted, she sang Body and Soul and reduced the audience to tears. She began singing in bars and restaurants. Four years later, she made her first record with Benny GoodmanIn 1935, she got her big breakthrough when she recorded four sides, which featured What a Little Moonlight Can Do, and Miss Brown to You. She landed her own recording contract, and while the songs given to her were run-of-the-mill (versus the ones saved for the top white singers), she made the songs classics because of her singing ability.


5) Lady day The many faces of billie Holiday
Meally O’ Robert New York Da capo Press.1991

This book show many pictures tells of many stories of Billie it even tells of the lifetime as a figure of trouble . Lady day has secured a place in the pantheon of American icons. Pop history . Fed by her own autobiography , has canonzied her print and film as the image of the star-as-victim, the heroin addict and dupe of a succession of husband and managers who kept her singing to support themseleves.